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Saturday, July 23, 2011


naye umango se aaj dhula sa hai aasmaan
shwet kirno se saja khwabo ka jahaan....
baadal bhi issharo mein hain bula rahe
aashaaon ki likhni hai nayi daastaan.....

naa girne ka hai darr aaj,naa khone ka gham hi hai
hai hoto pe muskurahat, naa aankhon mein nami hai
ek sadi beet gayi..mujhe ye abhaas hone ko
hai jindagi ye meri..saham ke kyun thami hai ........

aaj har bandhan hai jaise tuta sa
har daaman jaane kabse chuta sa
mann ko aaj par khol lene do
unmatt hai ise nashe mein rehne do
dagmagate kadmo ko mukaam tay kar lene do
aaj mujhe udaan bhar lene do...

har andhere ki hai subah, jo thode pal guzar jaaye
har chahat ki hai raah, jo kuch hausle ubhar aaye
bheegi palke bhi khubsurat lage
aise najariye ki jarurat hai
aasuon ki hain moti si keemat
har boond ek anmol amaanat hai
khushiyo ki wajah thi kayin
to kyun ab tak udaas tha
har mod pe hai nayi kahaani
beete pal se kyun hataash tha.....

aaj har mausam ka aaghaaz hai
dishaaon se gujti awaaz hai
har dhup mein chhaaw hai dikh rahi
jajbaato ko mile alfaaz hain
ab beh chale hum
      naa lahro ko yun rijhaane do
nayi dhun hai manchali
      ji bharke gungunane do
soch mein jo tarang hai..yatharth kar lene do
aaj mujhe udaan....bhar lene do..............

Friday, July 15, 2011

The Exam Night!!!

"Mom, Mom get up!!!"
"hah...ohh...!! I am still awake beta, so how many chapters are done????"...

Some incidents in our life, though insignificant result wise, leave a deep impact and a sweet memory to cherish forever.

I still remember that night. Don't ask me the date, I was always weak in memorizing dates. As one of my 'super' intelligent friends used to say "why do we have to remember dates in history, it's the fact which is important, figures i can always find out in some book." Figures never attracted him, well, on the same lines I was always found short of dates in my history answer sheets.

It was March 2005, one of the most tensed periods of my life, courtesy AISSCE EXAMS, I mean my class 12th board exams.Next morning, I was supposed to write my Biology paper....yes..I had biology too; I was one of them who loved to sail with each leg on a boat. Boat 1 'Maths' and boat 2 'Biology'!!

WHOPPING 20 plus night..the equation was already superfluous for me.
It was like climbing the Qutub minar to grab a cup of icecream before it melts...all alone..without any help.

Well, the evening started. My visual sense at its best and mind somehow coping up with the gradually increasing load.1,2,3,4,....10,11 God.."why do they make so many chapters???". I wished some pages disappeared from my book that night.

"Dinner time!!!!!"came my mom's voice piercing all my concentration..
I always considered it as the intermission of my study-show, 'Dinner time'.."why did they cook food so early today, its just 10:30 pm!!" After I made everyone wait for 15 minutes, finally my father shouted "whole year he won't study and then he will torture everyone of us with his last night virtues, you know the whole colony knows that your son has some exam tomorrow!!"...what could I have done papa, I had the genes of an engineer, and who understands the value of last minute better than us!!

During the whole dinner my mind was at page no. 236, trying to imagine what is next in store for me!!

Then came the most difficult phase of the night. With the whole world asleep, essentially my family, and silence like that of a cemetery, I used to find it very difficult to concentrate for a long stretch of time. Still, no choice right!! one night of resolution could have made me a hero next morning!!
While I was preparing to wage the lone battle, came my savior- my MOM.

With around 6-7 magazines and newspapers in one hand and reading-glass in the other, she just made me feel I have another commando with me, ready to take on enemies!!
"you continue your studies, i am going to stay awake with you till you finish your course"..that sentence was just poetry to my ears!!
"Trust me mom, it won't take more than...uhhhhhh 3 hours!!!!!!"
We had one more companion, a bowl filled with Grapes. It was decided that whoever tends to sleep, will have to eat few grapes to break the shackles of the dormancy creeping in.

And I started, with better energy, all directed towards finishing my course. Chapter no. 12,13,14 and pluup!! came a grape into my mouth.I didn't realize that I was half asleep!! My mom looked like a strict headmistress.I offered her few grapes with a witty smile and resumed my mission. 16,17,18,19,20 and I suddenly happened to look at her. Though the ticking clock was warning me every moment, I still took out a few seconds to stop and observe.

She was asleep. Her face looked so plain with no expressions.The eyes, silent yet so tensed about her son's exam. Her glasses, half over her nose, just ready to be taken off. Her still body, tired and needing rest, yet energetic enough to last through the night for her son. Her mind, running through dreams, yet preparing to share the reality as much as she can.
"What would she gain if I get 10 extra marks in the exam!! "
Well, my stupid questions found no answers.

I woke her up..."Mom, Mom get up!!!"
"hah...ohh...!! I am still awake beta, so how many chapters are done????"
With a composed look I said " I am done, all chapters finished. I am gonna rock tomorrow!! You can go and sleep, please. You have to wake up early tomorrow"
"uhh...yaaaa..I should, good night beta, sleep well"
I switched off the light. She went to her room and laid down on the bed. After around 10 minutes of struggle, she was all calm again.

ON came my lights and I continued my battle. I don't remember when did I sleep that night but I was prepared for the exam.....atleast I thought so!!!!!
Well, exam was okay..I won't reveal the marks..actually it is not worth announcing. However, whatever I got, I owe maximum of that to my commando partner!!!!

These little moments are always forgettable in our life but they leave such a distinguished print in our heart that we just can't help recalling and missing them.
Life is always full of such little, touching moments but our hearts have become matured enough to feel them.
Sometimes, I feel like becoming a child again so that I can cry out my feelings without having to cover them with a deceiving fake smile.

Love you mom!! you know I do, and perhaps you also know that I would never be able to put these emotions in words!!!!